Continuing from my university graduation. Time to enter the work force. I guess that was when all turbulence started as the reality of the working life took a toil and reminded me that life is the toughest lesson. Having to date my first gf for quite some time, from poly through NS and to uni, you can imagine the time we were together. I guess I really enjoyed her especially those make-out session where I was free to wear pantyhose and be engaged in intimate moments with her. However, like I said previously... Good time do not last forever. Fundamentally, there was something wrong with our relationship. I will not disclose too much, all I can say that she was my first love but she got quite a few baggage that had been haunting her. We tried to make it work but to no avail. In the end, it was quite a tough decision to end it all.
Anyway, sorry for the sad introduction but that was how thing goes. After we broke up, I still kept all the hosiery that I bought for her and also some costumes that I ordered online. At that time when online purchase was still in the infancy stage, I was quite amazed how I managed to order an air stewardess and a nurse uniform from a Japanese website and had it delivered to my home. Anyway, all these are in the past already. The reason why I kept all the items was because they brought back memories and some part of me do wished that somehow I would find back my ex and start all over again...
Anyway, during this phase, nothing much was happening initially. I just worked and tried to get hitched again. Hopefully someone who was like my ex who knows how to dress up like a lady and spent some good time together. Unfortunately, tried dating a few girls for a while, bought lingerie for some of them to dress them up and shared passionate moment. However, they were not as open as my first ex. To me, it was good enough as I am more of a visual creature. Seeing them dressing up to be lady like and sexy was such a turn on for me. However, all these relationships just did not match up in the end... I was spending quite some time in and out of the dating scene until I decided to take a break.
It was this time when cousin's family was planning to move overseas and my mother asked me to go over to their house to be a caretaker. Quite luckily, I got my own room and also the whole house to myself as my cousin and her family were trying to settle overseas. Spending time alone in a house plus being single can drive the mind go wild. With more time alone and no need to fear someone looking over my shoulder, I was exposed to adult forum websites like Sammyboyforum where there was a section labelled as Keong Saik, Desker and X-Dresser Central. It was here when I stumbled upon photos so many glamour local crossdressers. They dressed so beautifully, which I considered more lady-like than the average Singapore woman... Something was stirring my heart and mind when I saw those CDs, a thought crept to my mind, I just want to be like them, dress like them and feel feminine and sexy... This episode just awaken the hiatus Crossdresser in me as I slowly chartered into the world of CD. It was also during this time when I came across a local transgender and CD website called SGButterfly. This opened the door to that long lost feeling of wanting to feel feminine in me, all the thoughts of dressing up came fast and strong. I slowly followed through some of the recommendation given by the sisters in SGButterfly as to where to get large size high heels and where to do lingerie shopping and so on, so many useful and helpful tips...
Going along, I was spending my time combing through SBF and SGButterfly, admiring those photos of those gorgeous CDs and also reading through their stories of how they started their CD journey, it just fill me with envy. Not sure what gotten into me, I just decided to venture deeper into the world of CrossDressing. Not just lingerie or pantyhose, but I decided to go out for a full suit to try out. You see, after going through past few relationships, I would keep those intimate items like hosiery, costumes and lingerie that I bought for my ex-girlfriends, in hope that I can use it for the next relationship. Since I decided to take a break from the dating scene, I was contemplating of wearing them myself to satisfy that desire for a feminine touch.
Having said that, I was not completely ready as I did not have any nice clothing, heels or wigs. So I searched through the internet to find where can I get good quality CD items. It just happened that I came across an online store called Suddenly Fem (now known as En Femme) with an extensive range of items for me to shop. I ordered quite a few things from them as they got Thanksgiving special sale (yes, it is a US website, and they are not cheap). I gotten a wig, corset and a pair of high heels for a start as I was not certain if the online shop was reliable. The things arrived weeks later and I was having mixed feeling. The wig and corset were perfect but the heels were a bit too small. Ended up, I got to Payless Shoe shop at Changi Citypoint and get a pair of size 44 heels.
Quite surprising, even though I got my cousin's house to myself. I did not feel comfortable dressing up as and when I liked. I guessed it is because this house do not belong to me, so I just did not feel at ease to dress up. Ended up, based on the recommendation by those CDs sisters in SGButterfly, I decided to check in to a hotel together with my CrossDressing apparels, hosieries, costumes and accessories. I also brought along my camera and tripod so that I could take photos of myself in those beautiful costumes that I brought for my ex-girlfriends.
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