My CD Journey (Part 6) - Married Life [Rebirth of Francesca]

Following from the purge, I thought I would never dress up again... Seems like I was wrong, but it felt good to be wrong this time round... Continuing my story from where I left off. This is Part 6 of my CD Journey, not sure will there be a Part 7. Isabelle Dreamin completed all her CD Journey stories within 6 parts. Maybe I should do the same... Anyway, back to my story...

After the purge, I tried staying off from crossdressing and all. I tried staying normal as a guy, controlled my urges and so on, never to think of Francesca again. During this time, I focused on my work and personal life, but once a while, I would still go into Sammyboyforum to view pictures of local CDs and admire them. Went back to the dating scene again, met a few girls, but still nothing hit it off for quite a while. It was when I resigned my fate that I found my wife-to-be. Will not go into the details here but we dated for a couple of years before we decided to tie the knot. At this point in time, I thought Francesca will be erased from my life forever, thinking that life will be normal from here on...

Will not comment too much about my married life, all I can say is this. After settling down for some time, while others admired my married life, I admired the carefree life of others... It is extremely hard work to make marriage work, there are a lot of compromises even though we felt that there are not a lot of differences in opinions between me and her. It is just that there are some aspects that my wife could not fully satisfy me even after much talk and discussions... Do not get me wrong, our marriage is not those quarrelsome type, I love my wife but... let us just say that there is not such thing as a perfect match or the prince and princess lived happily ever after in fairy tales, or at least that is how I feel. There are a lot of give and take, maybe due to my upbringing where I was taught that some time it is better to give... However, I feel that I give more than I take. I am a human too... I do feel tired after staying strong and indifferent... Work and other aspects in my personal life are not getting any easier but I tried to take it with a smile while keeping positive. There is still no kid yet but we are in the midst of trying... My wife does provide me with comfort and support but other than that, our personal lives are quite mundane... Guess I will end it here and not provide further details...

Anyway, over this period of time, I slowly restored back my Francesca FB account, thank goodness that Facebook still kept some of the old photos that I had uploaded. As mentioned, during my last purge, I disposed off everything, both physical (costumes and heels) and digital (pictures that I took), nothing was left... Using my Francesca FB account, I was able to connect with quite a few CDs, both local and overseas. At the same time, I have been chatting with other CDs in SBF. I have to admit, at this point in time, I was not certain if I ever want to dress up again because the last purge was quite costly... I am worried that I would feel another guilt trip and purge again but I was admiring pictures of those beautiful CDs, admiring them and reminiscing the feeling of satin and silk on my skin... So I was more like sitting on the fence, seeing how things go...

As days gone by, as I was surfing Facebook, I saw ads from WISH. To be honest, I was not a big fan of online shopping initially. While my wife always talked about her "conquests" from TaoBao, I was always skeptical about all these online shopping apps. However, the things that WISH was offering on their FB ads caught my attention. A pair of nice Glossy 70D coffee colour pantyhose for $5, I have always love those shiny and skin coloured pantyhose worn by singers like Taylor Swift or Beyonce. Now it is going for $5 only, what a steal. So I installed the app and checked it out. I was amazed by the items they were offering, cheongsam of up to 4XL going for $23, my CD heart was tempted, I have always wanted a cheongsam to transform myself into a lady... I just could not suppress that desire to buy these garments and put it on... I tried steering clear but faced with so many challenging things that are not going too well in my life. I just needed an outlet...

So, I did my first purchase of the pantyhose from the WISH app. It took almost 3 weeks to arrived but I was very satisfied with the results. After such a long absence from donning on any pantyhose, that feeling was exhilarating. One thing led to the next, I ordered one blue cheongsam and a size 43 heels. Again, it took 3 weeks to arrive but in the midst of waiting, I had been surfing the WISH app and shortlisting for things to buy. The cheongsam fitted well but the heels was too small. So I contacted a CD from FB and send the heels to her as a gift as she mentioned that her feet is around size 43. 

After a good three to four years. Francesca was reborn again... Just like a caged animal that was released from captivity, I went on a buying spree. Not only on WISH apps but also physical shops and other online stores. I gotten new leotard from Sonata Dancewear, nude / skin colour tights and satin gloves from some shops in Far East Plaza (will probably share some details of where I got my items in my future postings), so on and so forth. You see, I have my own bedroom, even though my wife and I were married, at times I would sleep in my bedroom alone. I kept all my CD items in a big storage casing and put it under my bed, so I would dress up secretly once a while when I spent time in my bedroom. At times, I would wait for my wife to be out or stay over at her parents place and I would have a dress up and photography session. You can see some of the outcomes of those sessions below.  

 

Portrait of a Lady - Part 3 (Heels)

In my third part of "Portrait of a Lady", I am going to talk about heels. High heels are a type of shoe in which the heel is significantly higher off the ground as compared with the toe. They make the wearer appear taller, accentuates the muscle tone in their legs and makes their legs appear visibly taller. There are many types of high heels, which come in different styles, colors and materials, and can be found all over the world. They have significant cultural and fashionable meanings attached to them, which have been largely shaped by historical contexts over the past 1,000 years. 

The influence of heels came mainly from the Western world as Eastern culture footwear design tends to be simplistic with the exception of those footbinding shoes or heels worn by ladies in court during the Qing dynasty. As time progresses, I feel that the Western world designed heels are more widely accepted as it is more practical.  

Looking at the list above, there are so many types of heels. In my view, a lady should always wear covered heels, be it a pump or stiletto. Maybe because I am not a fan of open toe/peep toe heels or even sandals, I feel that it is not graceful to show people the toes. On top of that, if a lady is wearing pantyhose, the seams at the footed toe area will show especially if she is wearing those open toes type of heels, it does not really go well as shown below.

However, I feel that much of it really depends on what you wear on the top. There are also some cases of exception especially when the open toe heels and those seamless pantyhose can complement each other well... For example, a high class and glamourous sandals with a matching nude pantyhose. Or the lady can simply learn some tricks while wearing nude sheer pantyhose with open toed heels.

Look at the picture above, the woman does have a pair of flawless legs, which are nicely tan. As you follow the legs from the thigh down to the ankle area, you will see those veins that are popping out and the sandals just show off the toes. The girl is pretty but she lacks that finishing touch to beautify her. If she put on a nice pair of nude pantyhose, it will look so much complete as shown in the picture below (note, the picture below belongs to another model, but just trying to draw a reference here). 

The height of the heels depends on the occasion, for normal work or practical use, a low heels around 3 to 6cm is ideal. As work is about professionalism and formality, fully covered toes heels and nude pantyhose are a must. Just look at the pictures below and see how the nude pantyhose helps to smoothen out the blemishes and veins around the ankles while the black covered heels just add in that formal yet feminine, powerful yet charming looks for the Office Lady (OL)... 

In a professional setting such as work, sandals are a big NO NO but peep toe heels is still acceptable to a certain degree. As shown in the picture below where the lady is wearing a nude pantyhose and a black peep toe heels, it is still palatable and pleasant. Imagine her wearing a pair of sandals in this outfit, it will be quite a mismatch that will totally ruin the looks. 

For more formal events, a slightly higher heels will be good to accentuate the height of the lady and making her more elegance and graceful. A stiletto of 8 to 11cm will be ideal for these occasions, making a lady looking ever so posh and classy. The dress or gown must match with the hosiery and heels, working together as a package to keep the image of a lady in a grand and generous way as shown in the pictures below. 

To end off, a nice pair of heels needs a matching hosiery to supplement it, just like how a nice cup of coffee complements butter toast in a breakfast set, you need to know how to match them and bring out the most feminine and beautiful aspect of a lady. 

My CD Journey (Part 5) - My Own Place Finally [Purge... Again]

Following up from the last chapter where I took my first step as Francesca, things in my life started to move forward. I started to create a Facebook account as Francesca because I realised that a lot of local CDs have a social media account. As I am more of a Facebook user, that was the only social media account I had. With a social media account, I was able to connect with other sisters from all over the world online. It was so cool. 

Moving on, at around age of 35, still single, I decided to get my own place as my cousin gotten her overseas PR-ship and was deciding to sell her house in Singapore. Somehow, I did not really like that unit, so I did not take over from her. Ended up, I managed to get my own place and finally, a place I can call my own...

Despite that I was moving to a new place where I could be getting my own freedom to dress up and do whatever I want, my guilt conscience started to act up. I started questioning myself why I CD. I blamed myself for having such a fetish of CD. In Mandarin, Crossdressing is also known as 易装癖, which literally means, opposite gender garment fetishism. I got fearful of what I had become as I could be spending my nights surfing through Facebook admiring photos of other Crossdressers. I started questioning myself, did I CD because of my first ex-girlfriend? It was through her that allowed me to expand my pantyhose fetishism to this current stage of transformation... This was when I decided to do a purge, my first purge. 

With a heavy heart, I threw away the flight stewardess costume and a few other pieces of costumes and hosiery, items that reminded me of my first ex-gf. Anyway, my size was growing and I was bigger size than my first ex-gf, so those costumes that I got for her were getting too small for me and would not fit anymore, so it was a good decision to throw them away. As I was doing my "clearance", a part of me just stopped me from going all the way. After some deliberation with myself, I decided to keep some items such as my wig, heels, some hosiery and gloves. I had them sealed in a box and thought to myself to deal with them at a later stage at my new house. 

Moving house was quite a big affair for the family, so I guess it was a wise decision to have a purge and thin out my collection in case my mother start going through my boxes and advising me to throw away things I do not need. Thank goodness, my years of experience I gained through hiding my stash of hosieries and lingerie for my ex-girlfriends paid off. I was able to get the remaining items into my new house. 

I took almost a year's break from CD as I need to slowly unpack my stuff and get on with my house renovation and decoration while juggling with work. So I guess my mind was not really in the right place to CD. Coupled with the fact that I guilt tripped myself, I was trying to stay off from things linked to CD. I took a hiatus from Facebook and deleted my account and tried to stay clean... However, when the house was done up, there was nothing more to touch-up, an idle mind is the devil's workshop. My mind started to wonder, loneliness and quietness of an empty house crept into me... I missed my ex-gfs, I missed having intimate moments and I missed that silky feeling of satin and silk on my skin... That was when I decided to make a comeback to CD...

So, Francesca was back with a vengeance. Now with my own place, I did not have to worry about where to put my items even though my mother would drop by my house for spot check if I did my housework and keeping the house clean (typical mother syndrome). It was then when I began buying more things online since I did a purge. For example, I got more satin opera gloves from eBay, then I continued to buy more feminine clothing from Suddenly Fem. I got myself two nice pencil skirts, both black and white and two satin bodysuits, both black and white again. 

With that suppressed feeling unleashed, I did dressing up whenever I feel like since I was staying alone. Up till this instance, I did mainly dressing up to feel pretty and sexy, no breast form or make-up as I want to keep it simple. Simply dress up to enjoy the feel and texture of the silky and smooth feeling of satin or silk over my skin, have a photography taking session (The photos below were taken during one of those sessions) and also to satisfy myself. All my CD photos were taken by myself and stored in a harddisk... I revived my Facebook account and was exposed to other interesting CD website like Fetlife and so on...

As again, things can go into reverse direction when pushed to the extreme... After having so much freedom of crossdress whenever I wanted, my guilt conscience started to act up again. I started to question my rationale and direction in life, considering at my age and still single. I felt answerable to my parents as I am the only male child of my family and I need to continue the lineage... 

I gave myself an ultimatum. After much thinking and consideration... I decided to end it all off, once and for all. I did another purge. A final final purge. I threw away all my CD clothing. All the newly bought garments. the body suits, the pencil skirts, all the lingerie, all the half-slips, all the hosiery and heels. I also threw away all those opened and used opera gloves. I cleared off everything except a few totally new unopened satin opera gloves and stored them in a nice secluded spot. I closed and deleted my Facebook and Fetlife account, I delete all my Crossdress photos from my harddisk. My normal self just wanted to get rid of Francesca and the CD life and never to return...

Portrait of a Lady - Part 2 (Cheongsam or Qipao)

Another post that will be full of pictures and images. In the previous part, we looked at the Western culture of wearing hosiery and gloves can bring out the feminine aspect of a lady. Now we will look at the Eastern influence or what garment can help to turn an average girl into an alluring lady. 

Cheongsam (Qipao)

There is nothing more sexy and feminine than a fitting piece of cheongsam or qipao that can accentuate the asset and beauty of a woman. The cheongsam, also known as the qipao, is a type of feminine body-hugging dress with distinctive Chinese features of Manchu origin. It was known as the mandarin gown during the 1920s and 1930s, popularised by Chinese socialites and upper-class women in Shanghai. You can watch the Youtube video below to see how cheongsam just add on that grace and beauty to the lady in the MTV.

Many view the Eastern thinking and culture as conservative in their dress and fashion sense but the cheongsam seems to be otherwise. The most important aspect of the cheongsam is that it must be fitting to the body and must not be too loose. The proportion must be matching so that the cheongsam can highlight the key assets of the lady's figure, her bust and hip, the mark of fertility and feminism. On top of that, the cheongsam also give prominence to the slim waistline to a lady, showing that despite of her voluptuous assets, she is also mindful of her figure. See the picture below to see how the cheongsam just emphasize all those hallmarks of a curvaceous and sexually attractive lady...

Besides the body hugging attributes of the cheongsam, another important feature to these cheongsam are slits  at sides of the gown. I believe that the original slits are not that high but as influenced by time and fashion, the slits cut became higher and higher, reaching up the the thigh and hip. Those high-slit cuts reaching top of the thigh and hip just added another dimension of attractiveness to this garment. The length of the traditional cheongsam usually cover the lady's leg to between the knee cap and ankle. This adds a layer of modesty to the lady and those high-cut slits, which is used to allow mobility in the ladies, expose the other feature of a lady's allurement, her well-figured hip and also her beautiful legs as shown in the pictures below.

With so much flesh exposed on the legs, as what every fine and modest lady should do, it is always important cover them up with a nice pair of sheer pantyhose, be nude, suntan or coffee colour, or even just a nice pair of nude coloured tights to do the trick. As for those who want to leave the men wanting for more, a nice pair of stay-on stockings or stockings with garter belt will just turn up the heat especially when you "expose them accidently"... You can see the effects of pantyhose together with a colour matching cheongsam in the pictures below. It just tease you by "covering up sufficiently but leaving the rest to your imagination" effect...

I feel that in order to complete portrait of a lady, we should put in the essence of the different garments to bring out the best. As we had seen previously, adding a pair of opera gloves can add elegance and class to a lady based on the gown she is wearing. Now, pairing opera gloves together with cheongsam has a different feel. A mix of tradition and class, sophisticated yet graceful. A woman wearing a cheongsam is already quite posh, by putting on a nice pair of satin opera gloves, it is not just about fashion, it is adding that finishing touch to the complete the stature of a lady as you can see from the pictures below.

Now, combining all the three garments that I talked about, cheongsam, pantyhose and satin opera gloves together. That is just divine... However, It is quite hard to find pictures of a lady in all three, or at least, I believe in some of the photos, the lady might be wearing nude pantyhose but it is not obvious. This is the best I can offer, Anna Williams from the Tekken game series. See that fiery red cheongsam together with a nice matching red opera gloves and sheer black pantyhose with a nice pair of red heels. That is a distinction of a lady. For the next post, I will talk about heels. Stay tune. 😀 

My CD Journey (Part 4) - Start of Working Life [The Birth of Francesca]

Continuing from my university graduation. Time to enter the work force. I guess that was when all turbulence started as the reality of the working life took a toil and reminded me that life is the toughest lesson. Having to date my first gf for quite some time, from poly through NS and to uni, you can imagine the time we were together. I guess I really enjoyed her especially those make-out session where I was free to wear pantyhose and be engaged in intimate moments with her. However, like I said previously... Good time do not last forever. Fundamentally, there was something wrong with our relationship. I will not disclose too much, all I can say that she was my first love but she got quite a few baggage that had been haunting her. We tried to make it work but to no avail. In the end, it was quite a tough decision to end it all. 

Anyway, sorry for the sad introduction but that was how thing goes. After we broke up, I still kept all the hosiery that I bought for her and also some costumes that I ordered online. At that time when online purchase was still in the infancy stage, I was quite amazed how I managed to order an air stewardess and a nurse uniform from a Japanese website and had it delivered to my home. Anyway, all these are in the past already. The reason why I kept all the items was because they brought back memories and some part of me do wished that somehow I would find back my ex and start all over again... 

Anyway, during this phase, nothing much was happening initially. I just worked and tried to get hitched again. Hopefully someone who was like my ex who knows how to dress up like a lady and spent some good time together. Unfortunately, tried dating a few girls for a while, bought lingerie for some of them to dress them up and shared passionate moment. However, they were not as open as my first ex. To me, it was good enough as I am more of a visual creature. Seeing them dressing up to be lady like and sexy was such a turn on for me. However, all these relationships just did not match up in the end... I was spending quite some time in and out of the dating scene until I decided to take a break.

It was this time when cousin's family was planning to move overseas and my mother asked me to go over to their house to be a caretaker. Quite luckily, I got my own room and also the whole house to myself as my cousin and her family were trying to settle overseas. Spending time alone in a house plus being single can drive the mind go wild. With more time alone and no need to fear someone looking over my shoulder, I was exposed to adult forum websites like Sammyboyforum where there was a section labelled as Keong Saik, Desker and X-Dresser Central. It was here when I stumbled upon photos so many glamour local crossdressers. They dressed so beautifully, which I considered more lady-like than the average Singapore woman... Something was stirring my heart and mind when I saw those CDs, a thought crept to my mind, I just want to be like them, dress like them and feel feminine and sexy... This episode just awaken the hiatus Crossdresser in me as I slowly chartered into the world of CD. It was also during this time when I came across a local transgender and CD website called SGButterfly. This opened the door to that long lost feeling of wanting to feel feminine in me, all the thoughts of dressing up came fast and strong. I slowly followed through some of the recommendation given by the sisters in SGButterfly as to where to get large size high heels and where to do lingerie shopping and so on, so many useful and helpful tips...

Going along, I was spending my time combing through SBF and SGButterfly, admiring those photos of those gorgeous CDs and also reading through their stories of how they started their CD journey, it just fill me with envy. Not sure what gotten into me, I just decided to venture deeper into the world of CrossDressing. Not just lingerie or pantyhose, but I decided to go out for a full suit to try out. You see, after going through past few relationships, I would keep those intimate items like hosiery, costumes and lingerie that I bought for my ex-girlfriends, in hope that I can use it for the next relationship. Since I decided to take a break from the dating scene, I was contemplating of wearing them myself to satisfy that desire for a feminine touch. 

Having said that, I was not completely ready as I did not have any nice clothing, heels or wigs. So I searched through the internet to find where can I get good quality CD items. It just happened that I came across an online store called Suddenly Fem (now known as En Femme) with an extensive range of items for me to shop. I ordered quite a few things from them as they got Thanksgiving special sale (yes, it is a US website, and they are not cheap). I gotten a wig, corset and a pair of high heels for a start as I was not certain if the online shop was reliable. The things arrived weeks later and I was having mixed feeling. The wig and corset were perfect but the heels were a bit too small. Ended up, I got to Payless Shoe shop at Changi Citypoint and get a pair of size 44 heels. 

Quite surprising, even though I got my cousin's house to myself. I did not feel comfortable dressing up as and when I liked. I guessed it is because this house do not belong to me, so I just did not feel at ease to dress up. Ended up, based on the recommendation by those CDs sisters in SGButterfly, I decided to check in to a hotel together with my CrossDressing apparels, hosieries, costumes and accessories. I also brought along my camera and tripod so that I could take photos of myself in those beautiful costumes that I brought for my ex-girlfriends.

As you can see, these were the photos taken during that escapade. My first full CD experience in a hotel, captured on camera. I dressed myself up in ballet leotard, in shapewear slip, in flight stewardess costume and Hooters costume. It was a memorable and fun time, I felt so happy. Never once I felt my heart pumping so fast as I reviewed my photos that night in the hotel room. It was quite obvious why I worn that scarf in the photos. Firstly, I am still a newbie in the world of CD and I do not want people to know my identity. Secondly, I did not invest in make-up as I am still not that ready to go so deep into dolling myself up. 

Anyway, it was after this session that I truly appreciated and enjoyed the beauty of CrossDressing. I was admiring all the photos taken during that session and reminiscing the feeling of all those sexy garments on my skin as I dressed them up. I felt so feminine and alive... That long suppressed desire and wanting to feel like a lady was released... I felt released and joy in myself. It was at this moment, my alter-self, Francesca was born. This was when I decided to create a brand new identity for my CD self. In fact, I even changed my SGButterfly login to Francesca Koh after writing to the forum admin. This was how I took my next step into the world of Crossdressing. 

Portrait of a Lady - Part 1 (Pantyhose and Gloves)

This post will be an image galore as I shared pictures extracted from various internet sources to show my image of an ideal lady...

From all my previous posts, I kept emphasizing about the conduct of a lady, how a lady should dress and so on. To me, a lady must dress right for each occasion, know how to bring out that alluring aura and image in the way she dresses. Be it professional image during work, elegant appearance when attending a black-tie/ballroom or white-tie function, or sensual and seductive looks for her man in the bedroom. A lady should dress up something that brings out the best in her, at times classy and sophisticated, at times feminine yet modest, at times revealing yet covering enough to leave it to the imagination. There are some many things a lady can wear to bring out all these feelings, that is the beauty of been a woman. 

Disclaimer, this is my own perception and personal view and may not be practical in some sense especially looking at where Singapore is situated, near the Equator with all the sun, heat and humid weather... I feel that the global climate has become warmer. That is a fact. I remembered vaguely that the temperature in Singapore back in the 80's and early 90's was not this bad. Max of 32 degrees Celsius at most. Now, 34 to 35 degrees. Anyway, the weather is to set the context before I offer my view.

All thanks to the internet, my view and perception of the world was brought onto my screen as I stared at all these beautiful ladies, fully-clothed of course... To me, the Western world and Eastern world, each has their definitions of beauty but with the effect of globalization, each culture has found its way into the other and merged nicely to perfect this. I think I will have a few parts to this topic to discuss what makes a lady, a lady. From Western views and Eastern culture, I will talk about how a lady uses the various garments in her arsenal to make herself ever so attractive. 

Pantyhose

Before I start, do note that I will lump the various types of hosiery such as tights, pantyhose and stockings as pantyhose in general here. Each is different from the others in some ways, so I will discuss in depth about hosiery in a separate post in the future. (So many things I wanted to post in the future... 😅)

I guess I was more influenced by the Western culture in my early days as I viewed that a lady must always wear pantyhose underneath to dress her legs up. A lot of modern women view wearing pantyhose as a torture or a pain, others view it as unnecessary as they view their legs as perfect and without blemishes. A lot of other female viewed hosiery as concealer for imperfect legs or to balance their complexion with the clothes they are wearing. Some wear tights (thicker version of pantyhose) to cover their legs in view of cold weather. To me, a pair of hosiery is not just a fashion statement but it portray of class and elegance. Dressing up the legs is some sort of mannerism and etiquette to make a woman more ladylike. 

The picture shows Kate Middleton, also known as Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge, dressed in black pantyhose for a formal occasion. See how that black hosiery make the whole looks complete just like that. Some may argue that it is because of the outfit she is wearing but the next picture shows how the Duchess was wearing a shiny nude pantyhose underneath her dress just makes her so perfect. In fact, in my view, a sheer Inca, Honey or Suntan pantyhose or a nude coloured tights will do the trick as well. The Queen mandated that all her family members and guests to wear tights. That is all as a form of courtesy and respect to each other and to show modesty and upbringing.  

At other times, pantyhose are worn to bring out that feminine side in a woman. The picture below shows photo of Joan Collins from TV series Dynasty. The gown she worn is just so seductive, and with that sheer lilac pantyhose, it can just leave some guys yearning that sheer touch and more... The way she seats in the picture, does that not leave your heart racing for more?

While some may think wearing pantyhose as sexy or seductive, but wearing pantyhose is also to protect the modesty of a woman. Depending on what a lady is wearing underneath her skirt, pantyhose may be the last piece of lingerie to be worn as a dress up for the legs. Depending on the denier scale of the pantyhose, those higher denier pantyhose can act as an addition piece of garment to prevent accidental wardrobe malfunction or unintentional exposure... That is why a lady must always make the effort to wear hosiery for the legs. 

Gloves

Gloves, as a fashion, is never popular in Singapore. It never took off mainly because of the unforgiving hot weather here and also the culture I guess. However, due to the heavy influence by the internet where I came across pictures of gorgeous ladies in satin gloves (mainly from the West), I found myself attracted to them. Especially ladies in long satin gloves, the satin gloves just added a layer of class, femininism and glamour to them. 

There is always a saying, girls look the most beautiful on their wedding day. Look at the above photo of brides in their white wedding gowns, see how the white satin gloves (aka opera gloves) just add the finishing touch to accentuate the beauty of the lady. The long gloves limit and balance the exposed area of a lady just like how two pieces of jigsaws that fit together nicely, it just make them so perfect. Opera gloves were introduced to bring the fashion for covered hands into the bedroom, protect skin during sleep and leisure time, and provide modesty for women during times of travel, visitation, or shared accommodation.

While pantyhose is used to dress up the lower extremities, long satin gloves are used to doll up the upper extremities. Satin gloves add a particularly elegant touch to the formal attire that the lady is wearing, they represent beauty, grace, and high social status. The photo above is another photo of Joan Collins, look at how that lilac coloured satin gloves fit her gown, much like saying, "fits like a glove". The key to it is choosing a suitable colour to suit the dress or gown.  

Another picture from the royal family, the late Princess Diana in a dark purple gown with matching opera gloves. See how the two pieces of garments complement each other to bring that true mark of a lady within her... In the Western culture, some consider it rude or unglam to be bare hands when going for a formal event. Based on a website search, there are rules for wearing gloves to royal events. When royals wear gloves to engagements, there are certain rules they must follow. Gloves must be worn on the way to the event, when shaking hands, standing in a receiving line, and when dancing. Gloves must be taken off — finger by finger — for dinner or when eating any food at all (even a tiny bite) and they can’t be worn at the dinner table. During the meal, they’re supposed to be placed in one’s lap underneath the napkin. See the elaborate etiquette of donning a pair of gloves, so much details for it just to ensure proper conduct and behaviour of a lady.

To end off, the ideal lady should always know how to dress appropriately for the occasion and using the different garments to bring out her most feminine and desirable side. I will leave you all with the last picture of a lady in both pantyhose and satin gloves. See how it make your heart skip a beat. 😉

My CD Journey (Part 3) - Young Adulthood [Age of Internet and costumes...]

Was having a hard time choosing a good title for this chapter. In fact, I had changed it 3 times to come to this one... At first I was thinking of concentrating on my polytechnic education, then I was thinking about tertiary education with Poly and Uni in mind, then I remembered that in-between, there is National Service (NS). So I lumped them into this phase called Young Adulthood.

I have to admit that there is not much happening during this period of time ever since I had my first "purge". Despite that incident, my desire for female garments has never stopped. During my upper secondary school days, the boys changed from wearing shorts to long pants for school. I really missed the feeling of wearing pantyhose and I secretly wished that I was wearing it underneath my long pants and enjoying that silky feeling every minute. However, I did not have any pantyhose in my stash and of course, I was worried that my friends would find out about this (which come to think of it, I doubt they could).

Forwarding towards my polytechnic days, I started to wear jeans to school. Quite different from kids these days where they can simply wear shorts, bermudas and flip flop or slippers to poly. During my time, we were expected to dress properly for our tertiary education. Of course, with male garments that can hide my thighs. The urges and thoughts of wearing pantyhose underneath my jeans and no one would know caused an excitement in my heart but I did not know where to get pantyhose and of course, I lacked the courage to do it ever since I was caught by my mother for wearing feminine clothes the last time... Nothing noticeable during this phase except this was where I met my first girlfriend (now ex). Since I mentioned her, she has a role to play in my later part of my young adulthood. 

I guess the next eventful thing that happened during this period was the discovery of LAN internet in my polytechnic as compared to those dialup modem that I used at home. With faster connection speed and no danger of connection cutoff, I was introduced to the world of IRC and the rest of the "world". Still in my puberty phase, my interests in opposite gender grew and coupled with internet, you know what it can lead to. Well, come to think of it, I guess I was quite daring to use the school network to look at lewd photos and porno. Instead of going for hardcore movies or pictures, what turns me on are still ladies in pantyhose or stockings, with feminine lingerie and satin pencil skirts or blouses. To me, that is what a lady should be wearing... Maybe more of that in later chapters. It was also this time that I happened to stumble upon the sexy goddess, Bettie Page, whom I feel is a good representation of the lady... in the bedroom. I simply love the lingerie and feminine garments that she worn. It is through Bettie Page that I learned more about the different lingerie that a lady can wear. 😛 

Fast forward to poly graduation and serving National Service, together with other young men, I guess the "crossdresser" in me took a hiatus as I suppressed the CD urge within me. Maybe because I am in front of other guys, so I must act manly. Or maybe because I got a girlfriend at that time, that took my mind off CD. 

Another fast forward, ORD (Operational Ready Date) from my NS, got my pink Identity Card (IC) back and becoming a free man once more. Time for my university education. Another phase with not much happening in the initial phase of my uni days except that I was still with my first gf. After going out for quite some time, and having to gone through some many years together, we tried to take our relationship to the level of sexual exploration. I mean, we are both of that age of sexual maturity and curiosity. So one day, after going out, we tried booking a hotel and get on with some heavy petting. However, as my gf and I were from conservative family, we both agreed to that there will be no penetration but just mutual exploration and stimulation. It was during this first encounter where I requested my gf to wear pantyhose for me and she obliged to it... So before the next session, we bought some pantyhose from some shops before going the the hotel. In the room, she worn pantyhose for me while we both are in the heat. I was feeling her silky and smooth legs and that really bring me back the feeling and urges of wanting to wear it also... This was the best part, after that session, I actually told my gf that I wished to wear pantyhose also during these sessions as I wanted to feel sexy too. I was afraid that she would think I am a weirdo or a freak but she just agreed to it. I will not go into the details here but you can imagine how happy I was. In subsequent make-out sessions, it was quite common where we both just find some departmental stores to shop for pantyhose before going to the hotel to have our intimate sessions. Both of us with pantyhose on while she still have her panty on and we just make-out with one another. It was so memorable and lovely... There were instances where my gf would tease me by putting the bra on me and asking me to wear. I guess I wanted to keep my face or at least not to show her my full CD desire, I outwardly said no, but in my heart, I wished that she would just force me to put it on...

I guess I had shared enough intimate information about me and my ex, so I will not go into the details anymore. However, what is noticeable was even since those close encounters. I craved for more exciting sessions with her by wanting to dress her up in different type of costumes to satisfy my desire. All thanks to the internet, which is a great sources of pictures of beautiful girls in costumes and outfits such as nurse, air stewardess, Hooters uniform and so on. This leads me wanting my gf to dress up in those costume and tease me with it... 

So far, I guess during this whole period of young adulthood, my alternate CD self was in the cocoon stage, still fringing on pantyhose wearing while having nice intimate sessions with my gf. It was such a bliss... Unfortunately, all these took a turn at the later stage...