Following from the purge, I thought I would never dress up again... Seems like I was wrong, but it felt good to be wrong this time round... Continuing my story from where I left off. This is Part 6 of my CD Journey, not sure will there be a Part 7. Isabelle Dreamin completed all her CD Journey stories within 6 parts. Maybe I should do the same... Anyway, back to my story...
After the purge, I tried staying off from crossdressing and all. I tried staying normal as a guy, controlled my urges and so on, never to think of Francesca again. During this time, I focused on my work and personal life, but once a while, I would still go into Sammyboyforum to view pictures of local CDs and admire them. Went back to the dating scene again, met a few girls, but still nothing hit it off for quite a while. It was when I resigned my fate that I found my wife-to-be. Will not go into the details here but we dated for a couple of years before we decided to tie the knot. At this point in time, I thought Francesca will be erased from my life forever, thinking that life will be normal from here on...
Will not comment too much about my married life, all I can say is this. After settling down for some time, while others admired my married life, I admired the carefree life of others... It is extremely hard work to make marriage work, there are a lot of compromises even though we felt that there are not a lot of differences in opinions between me and her. It is just that there are some aspects that my wife could not fully satisfy me even after much talk and discussions... Do not get me wrong, our marriage is not those quarrelsome type, I love my wife but... let us just say that there is not such thing as a perfect match or the prince and princess lived happily ever after in fairy tales, or at least that is how I feel. There are a lot of give and take, maybe due to my upbringing where I was taught that some time it is better to give... However, I feel that I give more than I take. I am a human too... I do feel tired after staying strong and indifferent... Work and other aspects in my personal life are not getting any easier but I tried to take it with a smile while keeping positive. There is still no kid yet but we are in the midst of trying... My wife does provide me with comfort and support but other than that, our personal lives are quite mundane... Guess I will end it here and not provide further details...
Anyway, over this period of time, I slowly restored back my Francesca FB account, thank goodness that Facebook still kept some of the old photos that I had uploaded. As mentioned, during my last purge, I disposed off everything, both physical (costumes and heels) and digital (pictures that I took), nothing was left... Using my Francesca FB account, I was able to connect with quite a few CDs, both local and overseas. At the same time, I have been chatting with other CDs in SBF. I have to admit, at this point in time, I was not certain if I ever want to dress up again because the last purge was quite costly... I am worried that I would feel another guilt trip and purge again but I was admiring pictures of those beautiful CDs, admiring them and reminiscing the feeling of satin and silk on my skin... So I was more like sitting on the fence, seeing how things go...
As days gone by, as I was surfing Facebook, I saw ads from WISH. To be honest, I was not a big fan of online shopping initially. While my wife always talked about her "conquests" from TaoBao, I was always skeptical about all these online shopping apps. However, the things that WISH was offering on their FB ads caught my attention. A pair of nice Glossy 70D coffee colour pantyhose for $5, I have always love those shiny and skin coloured pantyhose worn by singers like Taylor Swift or Beyonce. Now it is going for $5 only, what a steal. So I installed the app and checked it out. I was amazed by the items they were offering, cheongsam of up to 4XL going for $23, my CD heart was tempted, I have always wanted a cheongsam to transform myself into a lady... I just could not suppress that desire to buy these garments and put it on... I tried steering clear but faced with so many challenging things that are not going too well in my life. I just needed an outlet...
So, I did my first purchase of the pantyhose from the WISH app. It took almost 3 weeks to arrived but I was very satisfied with the results. After such a long absence from donning on any pantyhose, that feeling was exhilarating. One thing led to the next, I ordered one blue cheongsam and a size 43 heels. Again, it took 3 weeks to arrive but in the midst of waiting, I had been surfing the WISH app and shortlisting for things to buy. The cheongsam fitted well but the heels was too small. So I contacted a CD from FB and send the heels to her as a gift as she mentioned that her feet is around size 43.
After a good three to four years. Francesca was reborn again... Just like a caged animal that was released from captivity, I went on a buying spree. Not only on WISH apps but also physical shops and other online stores. I gotten new leotard from Sonata Dancewear, nude / skin colour tights and satin gloves from some shops in Far East Plaza (will probably share some details of where I got my items in my future postings), so on and so forth. You see, I have my own bedroom, even though my wife and I were married, at times I would sleep in my bedroom alone. I kept all my CD items in a big storage casing and put it under my bed, so I would dress up secretly once a while when I spent time in my bedroom. At times, I would wait for my wife to be out or stay over at her parents place and I would have a dress up and photography session. You can see some of the outcomes of those sessions below.
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