I have to admit that there is not much happening during this period of time ever since I had my first "purge". Despite that incident, my desire for female garments has never stopped. During my upper secondary school days, the boys changed from wearing shorts to long pants for school. I really missed the feeling of wearing pantyhose and I secretly wished that I was wearing it underneath my long pants and enjoying that silky feeling every minute. However, I did not have any pantyhose in my stash and of course, I was worried that my friends would find out about this (which come to think of it, I doubt they could).
Forwarding towards my polytechnic days, I started to wear jeans to school. Quite different from kids these days where they can simply wear shorts, bermudas and flip flop or slippers to poly. During my time, we were expected to dress properly for our tertiary education. Of course, with male garments that can hide my thighs. The urges and thoughts of wearing pantyhose underneath my jeans and no one would know caused an excitement in my heart but I did not know where to get pantyhose and of course, I lacked the courage to do it ever since I was caught by my mother for wearing feminine clothes the last time... Nothing noticeable during this phase except this was where I met my first girlfriend (now ex). Since I mentioned her, she has a role to play in my later part of my young adulthood.
I guess the next eventful thing that happened during this period was the discovery of LAN internet in my polytechnic as compared to those dialup modem that I used at home. With faster connection speed and no danger of connection cutoff, I was introduced to the world of IRC and the rest of the "world". Still in my puberty phase, my interests in opposite gender grew and coupled with internet, you know what it can lead to. Well, come to think of it, I guess I was quite daring to use the school network to look at lewd photos and porno. Instead of going for hardcore movies or pictures, what turns me on are still ladies in pantyhose or stockings, with feminine lingerie and satin pencil skirts or blouses. To me, that is what a lady should be wearing... Maybe more of that in later chapters. It was also this time that I happened to stumble upon the sexy goddess, Bettie Page, whom I feel is a good representation of the lady... in the bedroom. I simply love the lingerie and feminine garments that she worn. It is through Bettie Page that I learned more about the different lingerie that a lady can wear. 😛
Fast forward to poly graduation and serving National Service, together with other young men, I guess the "crossdresser" in me took a hiatus as I suppressed the CD urge within me. Maybe because I am in front of other guys, so I must act manly. Or maybe because I got a girlfriend at that time, that took my mind off CD.
Another fast forward, ORD (Operational Ready Date) from my NS, got my pink Identity Card (IC) back and becoming a free man once more. Time for my university education. Another phase with not much happening in the initial phase of my uni days except that I was still with my first gf. After going out for quite some time, and having to gone through some many years together, we tried to take our relationship to the level of sexual exploration. I mean, we are both of that age of sexual maturity and curiosity. So one day, after going out, we tried booking a hotel and get on with some heavy petting. However, as my gf and I were from conservative family, we both agreed to that there will be no penetration but just mutual exploration and stimulation. It was during this first encounter where I requested my gf to wear pantyhose for me and she obliged to it... So before the next session, we bought some pantyhose from some shops before going the the hotel. In the room, she worn pantyhose for me while we both are in the heat. I was feeling her silky and smooth legs and that really bring me back the feeling and urges of wanting to wear it also... This was the best part, after that session, I actually told my gf that I wished to wear pantyhose also during these sessions as I wanted to feel sexy too. I was afraid that she would think I am a weirdo or a freak but she just agreed to it. I will not go into the details here but you can imagine how happy I was. In subsequent make-out sessions, it was quite common where we both just find some departmental stores to shop for pantyhose before going to the hotel to have our intimate sessions. Both of us with pantyhose on while she still have her panty on and we just make-out with one another. It was so memorable and lovely... There were instances where my gf would tease me by putting the bra on me and asking me to wear. I guess I wanted to keep my face or at least not to show her my full CD desire, I outwardly said no, but in my heart, I wished that she would just force me to put it on...
I guess I had shared enough intimate information about me and my ex, so I will not go into the details anymore. However, what is noticeable was even since those close encounters. I craved for more exciting sessions with her by wanting to dress her up in different type of costumes to satisfy my desire. All thanks to the internet, which is a great sources of pictures of beautiful girls in costumes and outfits such as nurse, air stewardess, Hooters uniform and so on. This leads me wanting my gf to dress up in those costume and tease me with it...
So far, I guess during this whole period of young adulthood, my alternate CD self was in the cocoon stage, still fringing on pantyhose wearing while having nice intimate sessions with my gf. It was such a bliss... Unfortunately, all these took a turn at the later stage...
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