CD can be quite a lonely hobby...

Christmas time, time to be merry and jolly, time for gathering with friends and loved ones... Somehow, not sure why, a part of me felt lonely. Especially a week ago, I was having the high of my time as Francesca when I visited Miss Y Studio and here I am a week later, feeling the blues... I think it was either Gin or Isabelle who mentioned that CrossDressing can be quite a lonely hobby and I never felt it so true especially today.

Do not get me wrong here, I am not asking company or male admirers. No please, I mentioned before, I DO NOT NEED MALE ADMIRERS! So stay off my profile. Thank you. I get my fair share of likes on Facebook and Instagram with my latest bridal snapshots taken and I am thankful for that. I do have a good bunch of CD friends, most of which I have not met except maybe three of them. That is because I am more of a closet and not really ready to take on the whole world yet by dressing out.

That feeling of loneliness is from the fact that I cannot share my latest joy of my CD friendly studio expedition with my friends and my loved ones. I do not think that my bunch of male friends will accept it. They will definitely take me as having mental or sexuality issue... I do not think my female group of friends will embrace this idea too, though I somehow have the inclination that some may be more open... But why risk it... And of course my wife, the one I have been keeping mum about Francesca so far... Consider that Isabelle can still shared her first wedding bridal shoot with her wife, someone who can share the joy with, I totally doubt I can show my wife the recent photos of Francesca in wedding gown as it will not go down easy with her... 

So, that is the reason for feeling that loneliness, especially today when friends gathered to talk about their recent overseas trip or experiences. I got to suppress that joy that Francesca had about the Malacca trip and not talk about it or even to show some of my photos taken that day. I have to live a lie that I told about my Malacca trip... That does not go down easy on me. That is why I remembered somehow that I read somewhere, CD can be quite a lonely hobby...

I mean, it may not always be the case, especially for those CDs who have friends who know that they crossdress, especially like cosplayers. There are also gatherings organised by some of the CD and TS groups like Sgbutterfly or Sggurls group, but I feel those are more for those CDs who are more veterans and experienced or more daring to dress out. For those not ready to leave the closet like me, I guess there is no other choice but to accept the fact that closet CrossDressing is a lonely past time and, we cannot and will not share with the ones we know in our male persona.

Just thought of letting it out here, hopefully I did not dampen the festive mood. Merry Christmas to all. Take care and Cheers.